Living Emotion is an EP dedicated to the idea of emotions. The title has a dual meaning: both that emotions are alive, complex, and always morphing into something new, but also that we must become used to living with emotion, not against it. The EP explores a variety of emotions and situational feelings, with the intent of not judging those feelings in a positive or negative light, but instead learning to accept them as they come and as they go.
This track opens the album with a statement toward the morphing nature of emotions. The slashes in the title are meant to depict an up and down arrow, showing how our moods are in constant flux and can rapidly shift between extremes. I wrote this piece after a significant life change, and I felt absolutely terrible. The next day, practically all my problems reversed and I could not have felt happier. This song represents the feeling of changing feelings, and sets the tone for the rest of the EP.
Rage Fear Love
This track revolves around a sample from the 1950 movie: Control Your Emotions. This film postulates that all our emotions boil down to rage, fear, and love, and that they all have specific stimuli that, when controlled, allow us to control our emotions. Of course, that’s absurd; this song mocks that idea by exploring the complexities of those three emotions. The fear and love sections in particular have hidden meanings.
This track explores the idea of empowerment motivated by fear. Keeping this in mind, the song never really relaxes, and is meant to evoke the feel of a chase scene. This concept is furthered by the car startup and shutdown noises at the beginning and end of the song respectively.
idioms (ft. kara)
As the only song on the EP with full vocals, idioms is left intentionally vague. While many of the other songs deal with emotions that result in outward actions, idioms deals with feelings of helplessness, loneliness, and anxiety, and how it feels when those emotions are left unaddressed. In other words, idioms is about the struggle of holding feelings in, even if out of necessity.
The Left Hand Knows
The intention of this song is to express someone being in denial of their own actions or feelings. More specifically, it takes the perspective of a friend who feels hurt or betrayed by the person for lying to them, even if they fully believe their own lies. The title of the song originates as half of the phrase, “the left hand knows what the right is doing,” showing that denial is always temporary.
BLIND CONFIDENCE [BURNING BLOOD]
This song deals with the feeling that, for lack of a better word, I have named “blind confidence.” This is the kind of confidence that must be influenced by some outside factor which makes the person feel unnaturally powerful or motivated. Examples of this would be anger, excessive drinking, or passion. However, blind confidence can only sustain itself for so long. The piece ends with a big falling out to represent the come-down from that high. This helps differentiate it from “God Factory,” which has a very similar feel of energy and confidence, but with different motivations.
Hopeful for a Sparrow
This final track on the EP represents the feelings associated with infatuation. There are four distinct movements: awe, longing, anguish, and love. Due to their core similarities, the melodies used in longing and love are incredibly similar, but evoke completely different emotions. It ends on a cautiously optimistic note, which I think is the best way to close out this EP. Even with all these bizarre emotions coursing through our heads, in the end, it’s okay. My favorite analogy describes emotions as waves. They come in so many shapes and intensities, they’re hard to predict, and some stay longer than others. But, in the end, they’re all temporary and they all shape us into who we are now.